i need to be more creative.
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lo_nie
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Friday, December 4, 2009
*Yawn*
Well I need a hug,busy as a fly on poo at the moment.I'm so physically and emotional drained.Hope it'll be worth it and someone notices I'm trying.Little bit lonely really.Some day soon maybe......I'm pretty nice I think.
I'm good at being me so we'll do our thing for the next while :)
I'm good at being me so we'll do our thing for the next while :)
Monday, November 23, 2009
The Usual
Been a while. College is busy as fuck and I'm pretty sure I will be going mental soon but hopefully I'll be able to calm it down slightly and take it out of a door instead of a person's face. haha.
In other news, life is nice and stuff. Friends: Good. Miss seeing the Dublin one's on a regular bases but well can't really be helped.
Need to more confident I think.
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lo_nie
In other news, life is nice and stuff. Friends: Good. Miss seeing the Dublin one's on a regular bases but well can't really be helped.
Need to more confident I think.
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lo_nie
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Life Innit!
Right so I haven't blogged in a bit but yes....
I finished what ever the fuck was going on with Shane and couldn't be happier.That makes it sound like we were going out or something lol.But yes he's not very good looking at all.I can do better.haha
I think I'm beginning to like myself a little more.Odd that.People have been saying nice things and I don't think they're lying.
Really wish Kev would notice......he's not an asshole!!!!Going to buckle down in college more.Got told to do a re write for the pitch thing and the filmbase dude Alan didn't get my twist....whooper buzz innit.I may make something of myself yet
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Lo_nie
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
Vicious Circles
At times I feel like my life is too boring so I envy people's problems which is pretty sick in itself.
But then I remember my own problems that I don't want to deal with. Hence forth the little boxes,boxes of crap I cannot go through.The nights,hospital visits,lost friendships due to myself,the boys(how gay)These boxes I can never open for they are stacked and it would lead to a jenga.
Other people's problems seem more appealing.This probably makes me a good friend at times.It's my distraction. But it's the emotional input that will fuck me over and for that I worry.
I can only try.......
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lo_nie
But then I remember my own problems that I don't want to deal with. Hence forth the little boxes,boxes of crap I cannot go through.The nights,hospital visits,lost friendships due to myself,the boys(how gay)These boxes I can never open for they are stacked and it would lead to a jenga.
Other people's problems seem more appealing.This probably makes me a good friend at times.It's my distraction. But it's the emotional input that will fuck me over and for that I worry.
I can only try.......
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lo_nie
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Be yourself is all that you can do
I am happy for what I have gained.
I am sad for what I have lost.
I am worried for what is to come next.
Peace Out.
Word.
I am sad for what I have lost.
I am worried for what is to come next.
Peace Out.
Word.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Time is running out
These are my hands,this is the water,they are now washed....
I really should be very stressed but I don't have to ability to reach a stressful state.
My yearly breakdown thing is coming around again....should be fucking fun.Hope I don't fuck anyone's life up too much,think I'll go with the recluse thing and throw myself into college work and stuff this time.Try hide the crazy :/
Peace Out
I really should be very stressed but I don't have to ability to reach a stressful state.
My yearly breakdown thing is coming around again....should be fucking fun.Hope I don't fuck anyone's life up too much,think I'll go with the recluse thing and throw myself into college work and stuff this time.Try hide the crazy :/
Peace Out
Friday, August 21, 2009
People should get crazy names
I've kissed a lot of people named Stephen.Five I think. *grabs collar*
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Work It Out!!!!
I don't want to be a notch in a bedpost.
It's never going to happen.Otherwise my life is great,I have awesome friends who love me.Why should I wonder about something I've never had.
Still makes me a little sad.Kinda feel like a joke.One person can only make so much effort without changing themselves completely and becoming a douchebag.
And you know what I like who I am.Yeh im fuckin' loud,don't talk proper,have no problem speaking about inapproiate things,enjoy annoying people,get angry very easily.But I've work on myself and this is the best I could do.Four years ago I was pretty much a shadow and now I'm me.So fuck it!!!:)
WOW this blog turned real possy.That Eyelashes one must be rubbing off on me lol
Peace out
It's never going to happen.Otherwise my life is great,I have awesome friends who love me.Why should I wonder about something I've never had.
Still makes me a little sad.Kinda feel like a joke.One person can only make so much effort without changing themselves completely and becoming a douchebag.
And you know what I like who I am.Yeh im fuckin' loud,don't talk proper,have no problem speaking about inapproiate things,enjoy annoying people,get angry very easily.But I've work on myself and this is the best I could do.Four years ago I was pretty much a shadow and now I'm me.So fuck it!!!:)
WOW this blog turned real possy.That Eyelashes one must be rubbing off on me lol
Peace out
Monday, August 10, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
This is all I need to feel alive!
Realistically I shouldn't get what I need beacuse I need to be happy on my own before I can sort out even being with someone else.But here's my anaylsis of the men I want
Shane:
What is there to say?He's one of the greatest people I know.He looks down on himself so much because he thinks he's not worth anything.He has the kindest spirit and I will always feel safe with him.His childlike ways of needing a cuddle makes me smile.Some things he's told me have scared me and make me worry about him.I worry all the time that I'll fuck our friendship with my stupid craziness.Will he ever see me in that way and in a sense will I ever see him like that,I thought I did but now I'm not so sure.
Adam:
Just makes me laugh.He's such a ridiclous person and if he wasn't so acidic it would probably work between us.Although his head seems to be a bit bleh.He's frickin' adorable and always know how to make me feel pretty and blush.
Eoin:
Probably the closest thing I could ever call a relationship.He talks about the most random stuff and then gets embrassed about what he's just siad.And he wears glasses.He also has the cutest smile and has such a friendly vibe about him.And he's really honest and I don't feel like being bullshitted like I do every other time.I miss talking about stupid things with him and he's being awkward.Boourns.
On a more vain note:
They all dress very well.
This blog will get me no here but it's nice to map it out for myself.
Peace
P.S. They all look nothing alike.LOL
Shane:
What is there to say?He's one of the greatest people I know.He looks down on himself so much because he thinks he's not worth anything.He has the kindest spirit and I will always feel safe with him.His childlike ways of needing a cuddle makes me smile.Some things he's told me have scared me and make me worry about him.I worry all the time that I'll fuck our friendship with my stupid craziness.Will he ever see me in that way and in a sense will I ever see him like that,I thought I did but now I'm not so sure.
Adam:
Just makes me laugh.He's such a ridiclous person and if he wasn't so acidic it would probably work between us.Although his head seems to be a bit bleh.He's frickin' adorable and always know how to make me feel pretty and blush.
Eoin:
Probably the closest thing I could ever call a relationship.He talks about the most random stuff and then gets embrassed about what he's just siad.And he wears glasses.He also has the cutest smile and has such a friendly vibe about him.And he's really honest and I don't feel like being bullshitted like I do every other time.I miss talking about stupid things with him and he's being awkward.Boourns.
On a more vain note:
They all dress very well.
This blog will get me no here but it's nice to map it out for myself.
Peace
P.S. They all look nothing alike.LOL
Friday, July 24, 2009
Awkwardness
You'd swear i was going to jump on him.This is why I don't bother with this sort of stuff.And then he says he's sleeping in his car in Sheepmoor of all places and me being a concerned lo_nie because I'm like that with all my boys,tell him not to and that I'll kill if he does.His smile is well adorable.It's that smile that you have when you've been drinking and you think no one is paying attention to you.That "Wow,things couldn't be more okay right now".He does that smile so well,probably because he's so unaware of other people.
Yeh fuck it.
Peace Out
Yeh fuck it.
Peace Out
Thursday, July 23, 2009
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It's a wonder I can funcition at all with a retard for a mother.One friggin minute she's nice to me,the other she's being pissy.You can't fucking win these days.Bi Polar to the max.
On other notes sex seems to be everywhere I look probably because I'm watching films like "Zack and Miri Make A Porno" and programmes like "Skins" but seriously "KISUM!!!" *grabby hands*.Fucking effort of it all though.
I think I should concentrate on making a money tree lol
Work better be decent later.
Peace Out
Hi Eilis *waves*
On other notes sex seems to be everywhere I look probably because I'm watching films like "Zack and Miri Make A Porno" and programmes like "Skins" but seriously "KISUM!!!" *grabby hands*.Fucking effort of it all though.
I think I should concentrate on making a money tree lol
Work better be decent later.
Peace Out
Hi Eilis *waves*
Monday, July 20, 2009
blargh
i have nice hands apparently and no legs.
so much for watching films loike...oh wait i hear a Phil shuffle!
goodbye
so much for watching films loike...oh wait i hear a Phil shuffle!
goodbye
Thursday, May 28, 2009
third time lucky
Right so not in a great mood at the mo.My face is very stingy,like allergic reaction stingy bet it was that Mr.Sheen in the eye at work yesterday.And my eyes hurt,saw Roisin today though that was good for laughs as always.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
second time around
Right so cultwatchers was on the good side for me,mammy eilis and mama naid.I think we're getting the hang of it.Bet I just jinxed myself there haha.
Stop Press!!!
I've learned something about myself in the last 2 days.Apparently if I go from really busy to really bored I get into a very bad mood.I'm like a friggin baby.
I have to say I do love a good walk to clear my head and listen to some great music's.Granted my feet were well sore today but it was a step in the right direction as cultwatchers would say.
Stop Press!!!
I've learned something about myself in the last 2 days.Apparently if I go from really busy to really bored I get into a very bad mood.I'm like a friggin baby.
I have to say I do love a good walk to clear my head and listen to some great music's.Granted my feet were well sore today but it was a step in the right direction as cultwatchers would say.
Friday, May 22, 2009
in general
So yeh new to blogging, im sure it will just become a place for me to rant and here it begins:
Some people are very shit with their lack of effort to see or contact their friends but yet they can check on their crush that has not 1% of an interest in them.And this busy line is bullcrap,you make time for your friends thats the deal aka what a friendship is.ARGGHH.
On the other hand some positive lo_nie updates:
1. I've got a possy Eilis who I am very proud of to say the least.
2. I'm getting skinny even Justin siad so.
3. I have a JOB.its fucking great,granted i only started this week but i like it seems to be a good vibe about it.think i may have a crush on my supervisor,he's well adorable in a nerdy way but he has a gf and you dont mix work and that crap.
4. My bike is fixed
Some people are very shit with their lack of effort to see or contact their friends but yet they can check on their crush that has not 1% of an interest in them.And this busy line is bullcrap,you make time for your friends thats the deal aka what a friendship is.ARGGHH.
On the other hand some positive lo_nie updates:
1. I've got a possy Eilis who I am very proud of to say the least.
2. I'm getting skinny even Justin siad so.
3. I have a JOB.its fucking great,granted i only started this week but i like it seems to be a good vibe about it.think i may have a crush on my supervisor,he's well adorable in a nerdy way but he has a gf and you dont mix work and that crap.
4. My bike is fixed
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