This is all I need to feel alive!

Realistically I shouldn't get what I need beacuse I need to be happy on my own before I can sort out even being with someone else.But here's my anaylsis of the men I want

Shane:
What is there to say?He's one of the greatest people I know.He looks down on himself so much because he thinks he's not worth anything.He has the kindest spirit and I will always feel safe with him.His childlike ways of needing a cuddle makes me smile.Some things he's told me have scared me and make me worry about him.I worry all the time that I'll fuck our friendship with my stupid craziness.Will he ever see me in that way and in a sense will I ever see him like that,I thought I did but now I'm not so sure.

Adam:
Just makes me laugh.He's such a ridiclous person and if he wasn't so acidic it would probably work between us.Although his head seems to be a bit bleh.He's frickin' adorable and always know how to make me feel pretty and blush.

Eoin:
Probably the closest thing I could ever call a relationship.He talks about the most random stuff and then gets embrassed about what he's just siad.And he wears glasses.He also has the cutest smile and has such a friendly vibe about him.And he's really honest and I don't feel like being bullshitted like I do every other time.I miss talking about stupid things with him and he's being awkward.Boourns.

On a more vain note:
They all dress very well.

This blog will get me no here but it's nice to map it out for myself.

Peace

P.S. They all look nothing alike.LOL

Awkwardness

You'd swear i was going to jump on him.This is why I don't bother with this sort of stuff.And then he says he's sleeping in his car in Sheepmoor of all places and me being a concerned lo_nie because I'm like that with all my boys,tell him not to and that I'll kill if he does.His smile is well adorable.It's that smile that you have when you've been drinking and you think no one is paying attention to you.That "Wow,things couldn't be more okay right now".He does that smile so well,probably because he's so unaware of other people.

Yeh fuck it.

Peace Out

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It's a wonder I can funcition at all with a retard for a mother.One friggin minute she's nice to me,the other she's being pissy.You can't fucking win these days.Bi Polar to the max.

On other notes sex seems to be everywhere I look probably because I'm watching films like "Zack and Miri Make A Porno" and programmes like "Skins" but seriously "KISUM!!!" *grabby hands*.Fucking effort of it all though.

I think I should concentrate on making a money tree lol
Work better be decent later.

Peace Out

Hi Eilis *waves*

blargh

i have nice hands apparently and no legs.

so much for watching films loike...oh wait i hear a Phil shuffle!

goodbye